Cream and Mint: Nonchalant Melancholy

And so...

2009-03-11T03:53:00.002+08:00

And so we were talking about giving and returning, perfection, self-reproach, doubt, and being unable to accept ourselves for who we are.

I haven't been this honest with anyone about myself for a very long time.

And I haven't appreciated soothing music this much before either.

Thanks.

Schedule

2009-03-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

BELOW IS THE SCHEDULE FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS OR SO. I (and everyone from AEDF308) will be very busy for today on, so do not expect another update soon. If I DO update, it means I'm about to snap.

2009, 4th March, Wednesday

10pm till 5th March 10am: Overnight Session for Sound Design work. (Thank you, Johnson, for offering some studio time~~) This is for the Gambit Audio Test. Last minute mugging for the final theory paper will take place within this time slot as well.

2009, 5th March, Thursday

10.30am till (estimation)12.30pm: Final theory paper.

2pm till 6pm: Studio (2) booking to finalize Sound Design work, and to do volume balancing for final recording project.

6pm till 10pm: Time for me to go home, shower, sleep... OR hang around in school to sleep.

12midnight till whatever time it takes to get it done: Scoring of strings segment for final recording project.

2009, 6th March,Friday

10am till (approx)12pm: Get fractured arm checked. Hopefully the cast can be removed.

12pm: DEADLINE FOR SUBMISSION OF THE GAMBIT AUDIO TEST.

(Pending) 2pm till 6pm: Try some mastering for final recording project.

10pm till 7th March 6am: Finalizing of final recording project. Strings and keys are expected to be mixed with the rest of Skyscrapers.

2009, 7th March, Saturday

9am till (approx) 10.30am: Dental appointment. This is the reason why I cannot stay till 10am for the overnight session.

1pm till 3.30pm(latest): Mastering of final recording project.

4.10pm till 7.40pm: Japanese class.

2009, 8th March, Sunday

Finalising of Logbook and Presentation slides.

2009, 9th March, Monday

10am till 5pm (latest): Final presentation. My slot's at 2.45pm, so a bit more mixing in studio 2 if I have to before that.

2009, 10th March, Tuesday till 2009, 12th March, Thursday

10am till 5pm: Sit in for other people's presentations. OR work on the acoustics project. OR mix some more, if necessary.

2009, 13th March, Friday

10am till 10pm: Work on the acoustics project. OR mix/master some more, if necessary.

2009, 14th March, Saturday

10am till 3.30pm: Work on acoustics project. OR mix/master some more, if necessary.

4.40pm till 7.40pm: Japanese class.

2009, 15th March, Sunday

Work on acoustics project.

2009, 16th March, Monday, till 2009, 18th March, Wednesday

(Earliest)10am till 10pm: Work on acoustics project. OR mix/master some more, if necessary.

2009, 19th March, Thursday

Final submission deadline for all projects.

6pm till 10pm: (Possibly) a studio booking for recording a third song. Could be for mixing Waves, if not recording.

To Nowhere

2009-03-04T20:01:00.003+08:00

Have been listening to this song as much as I have been listening to Sweet Memories (under music section if you want to hear it).

Here you go, another of Kajiura Yuki's works, with Emily Bindiger on vocals: To Nowhere.

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Lyrics:

Can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
we just keep dreaming of the land 'cross the river
We are always on the way to find the place we belong
Wandering to no where, we're paddling
Down the raging sea

Who can cross over such raving wind and water?
On the rolling boat we sit, shivering with coldness
Come by an island, come by a hillock,
It's just another place, we paddle on
Down the raging sea

But in one morning we'll see the sun
Bright shining morning dew singing
They who will search will find the land
Of evergreen

Can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
We just keep paddling down the sea, up the river
No destination, but we are together
In the silent sadness we're paddling
Down the raging sea
Down to no where

credits to Gendou

Manga Spoilers

2009-03-01T12:47:00.003+08:00

WARNING! NARUTO SHIPUUDEN SPOILERS IN THIS POST! Don't say I didn't warn you. :)

Just read the latest manga chapter (437) from narutocentral, and it's freaking cool. xD No, no, not Sasuke, but Hinata. Hahaha. She's an awesome girl, leaping out like that to help Naruto. And she finally told him that she liked him. xD Yay for Hinata~!!

And that old frog died!! (T.T) I hate frogs, but damn! Pain is such a bastard (lol), but I don't hate him either. And and, my GAWD, Naruto actually had six tails when he finally snapped and became the tailed beast. (O.O) And we thought four was bad enough.

It's getting really nice~~ Only I hope that Kakashi really isn't dead... (T.T)

Ahaha. xD Okay. Enough of my rants. I'm hungryyy. Foood.

Bleh.

Suddenly

2009-02-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

Suddenly everyone realises that it's only one week more to final presentations.

Suddenly everyone is speeding up and recording/mixing/mastering frantically;

Suddenly, everyone is PANICKING.

xD
It's funny how everyone goes "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH We've only got ONE MORE WEEK!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!!!" and run around in circles, pulling out whatever hair they have.

It's great to be working with good musicians. Although I'm not a good enough engineer yet... (>.>) Though I have to say, Skyscrapers is coming along nicely; the recording for Waves is not too bad too. I just hope people will like it after listening to the final mix, mastered and all.

I'm looking forward to hearing the final products of the guys in my batch too... They're all just too awesome; I feel so lousy just being around them. =.= Haha.

Despise

2009-02-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

I despise weaklings, people who are indecisive, people who get discouraged easily.

And therefore, I despise myself.

And the silly handicap did not sleep...

2009-02-20T09:10:00.003+08:00

...from 8am on 19th Feb till present time, 20th Feb.

She has recorded three songs in a span of 12 hours during the overnight session, enjoyed the band's company thoroughly, is happy enough with what she has recorded, and is DEAD TIRED.

Dead tired but very satisfied.

Although her arm is aching like mad. Although her eyes are drooping. Although she wants a shower. BAD.

Because she finally feels like she has got control over studio setups. FINALLY. After 10000000000000000 recording sessions, it seems like she's slowly able to control the situation well enough on her own.

The silly handicap is a happy person.

... And so the handicap decided to do something silly...

2009-02-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

and got herself an overnight recording session, with drums and all. xD
I'm hating myself.
But I can't wait for tonight's session either. Heh.
Something tells me it's gonna be one helluva night.
So yeah.

Grr.

2009-02-17T19:40:00.001+08:00

Something is effing wrong with me.
If I don't stop shooting my mouth off RIGHT NOW I'm going to have to resort to slapping myself.

Battered

2009-02-15T14:16:00.003+08:00

So, somehow, over the weekend, I found my left arm in a cast and my head in the land of bumps.

In secondary 1, it was a hairline crack on the right arm. And now, six years later, it's a fracture on the left. xD I've got to be the clumsiest genius ever. As for that bump on my head.... well, let's just say I have negative 100000000000000 brain cells left, assuming I started out with 0.

If there's anything that makes me depressed now, it would be the fact that my left hand is so swollen it looks like a pig's leg. (T.T) Lack of blood circulation.... it's freaking numb.

Okay. Complain session over.

Code Geass has finished downloading. Shall go watch it now. xD
Lelouchhhhh!!

That's all for now.

It's "you guys" and "me", not "us" or "we"

2009-02-12T15:06:00.006+08:00

I see a difference, a big one.

I have no intention of wanting to let anyone else know me better, so quit bugging me.

本当だ、、、

2009-02-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

きもち悪い。。。

The Biggest Idiot

2009-02-10T00:49:00.003+08:00

Before I could stop myself, the damage was done.

I thought I had learnt not to be so rash; I thought I had control over my tongue.

Apparently, I thought wrong.

It's time I became stricter with myself... before I deepen this gaping hole.

Before I lose all that I have now.

Bleh.

2009-02-09T17:29:00.002+08:00

It's just one of those days where I don't feel like doing anything, and whatever I try to do just feels damn boring.

Yes. Blogging included.

Has life always been this boring? I don't remember anymore.

Cool as Cucumber. xD

2009-02-06T08:13:00.002+08:00

A lag reaction, maybe?

I've never felt as calm as this before a presentation.

Of course, it's still a couple of hours away, so I'm not feeling the stress yet.

Regardless, it's a nice feeling.

I hope I don't crumble into pieces the moment I see Imran later.

Not Yet

2009-02-03T21:07:00.002+08:00

Still not enough.

There must be more that I can do; so much more.

I have to keep going till the very end.

Till I cannot find fault with anything else.

And on a side note...

I'm the stupidest person in the entire world.

Title-less...?

2009-02-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

It never is a good sign when I start my post without a title.

Because.

It means I have no idea what to talk about, and this, will lead to me typing nonsense. xD

Somehow Gendou doesn't want to load. =.= Oh wells.

Well....

I'm going to be overnighting in school today alone. (: Makes me happy. The guys are scaring me though. They give me those "OMG SHE'S STAYING ALONE!!! SOMEONE HELP HER!!!" look when they found out. Makes me wonder why.

They say it's ghosts. Now I'm not going to say that there are no such things, because I do think there are, but I dunno, I don't want to be frightened. Don't think it's worth freaking out over it. (:

Oh wells. If I freak out I'll be back. Hahaha.

Step by Step

2009-02-01T23:48:00.004+08:00

Slow.

Small and hesitant.

Can't say I've never looked back.

Can't say I don't wonder if I'm doing it right either.

There's this nagging voice at the back of my head:

"You're weak," it says,

"a total good-for-nothing, one who never does try enough."

And it makes me wonder whether I've done everything I am capable of doing.

Every day.

Everytime I do my assignments.

Everytime I draw, write, compose.

And I always end up deleting everything I have done.

Yeah. I'm weak.

But I'm still moving on.

I want to.

There's no point in me standing still.

That's why, no matter how small the step,

I'm walking on.

The Broken Melody

2009-02-01T01:28:00.003+08:00

Silence.

Stillness.

Pure white.

Pitch black.

The chill in the air.

The soothing sound of the piano.

Those are the things that comfort me;

Those are the things, that make up my broken melody.

GOD

2009-01-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

Urgh.

I really hate myself.

=.=

2009-01-29T11:59:00.001+08:00

I can't use the studio for mixing today cos there's class.

(T.T)

Hahaha.

Guess I'll drop by school tomorrow, then.

It's been a while since I've stayed at home like this....

If only my mum ain't home. =.=

Horrors...

2009-01-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

Ear fatigue has never been this painful, tiring and energy sapping.

I swear to God, I will NEVER work nonstop on mixes for nine freaking hours again. Point a gun at me and I still won't do it. I refuse. No way. Nada.

It started out with working on a rough mix for Orangecove today~~ Went to ask for permission to use Studio 2 after class (around 1.30pm), and mixed my way through till 5.30pm or so, after which while bouncing out the rough mix, I started setting up the microphones for drums recording.

And then Blind Meets Mute came in at around 6pm, and we recorded the drums for their new song, Waves. The drummer blew me out from the studio, out of SAE completely, with the crashes and hihats. Man. The cymbals were a hell lot louder than I thought it was.

And then, the throbbing in the head struck me. That was when I started to realise that ear fatigue had already hit me. =.=

I didn't hear it, but the band members said there were two drum sounds instead of one. God. That was hell. I had to re-record that whole drums portion before settling the bass, and after that I finally died (with a halo on my head and wings on my back) and had my two blessed co-engineers sit in to help me with the guitars.

By the end of the session at 10pm, I was completely zoned out and zombified. The guitar melody just kept going on in my head like a ping pong delay, with the occasional cymbal sounds and snare thuds...

I owe Aiman and Kevin big time, that's all I can say.

Lunar New Year

2009-01-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Happy new year people!! (:

Lots of fun things have happened these few days. For one, my recordings are going okay; thank god for nice supervisors and classmates who pop by during the sessions to troubleshoot for me. xD I'm slowly getting used to studio 2 and I really love it in there now. Although there are some occasional hiccups here and there it generally isn't a problem for me to do any recording or mixing anymore... well, not as much as last time, anyway.

Guitars are still proving to be a headache to mix but I'm keeping my ears glued on them now. I'm gonna make sure I get the sounds right by drowning myself in tons of guitar tones. Not to the point of ear fatigue, though, of course.

I also went to the SLAP! Prelaunch with Kevin and heard Blind Meets Mute (one of the bands I'm recording) live~~ They were pretty cool. Kevin said the guitars lacked low ends the moment he heard it, though it took me a few listens to realise that he was right. (T.T)

I have a hell lot more to learn.

After their performance my ears were ringing. It was loud. xD But interesting. It's been a while since I heard anyone live.

Meantime I'm rushing to get a rough mix of Beautiful Eyes out. The guys from Orangecove needs it by Wednesday to submit it for Baybeats. I'm gonna work hard. :x Have already done volume balance, and I already know what I need to do to make the drums and vocals sound awesome, so that's no worries anymore~~

I'm enjoying this mad rush for time and all those clustered recording sessions I'm lining up for myself week after week. Granted, it's tiring and it makes me sleepy and dazed during the day, but I cannot help but look forward to each session in the studio... So much so that I wish new year celebrations would be over soon.

Right now the time is passing very very slowly, and all I can do is listen to Skyscrapers and Beautiful Eyes over and over and over again and come up with new mixing ideas while my mum entertains guests. I really hope I can return to school right now to mix. =x

I hope you people reading this are having a better celebration than I am~

sleepy

2009-01-23T20:05:00.001+08:00

Sleepy...

sleepy....

...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Am asleep. xD

Not.

Just totally bored outta my wits.

And with this random post, I rest my case.

My anonymous producer (:

2009-01-16T01:08:00.003+08:00

I have always been bad at mixing electric guitars; to me, they just sound like a chunk of distorted noise in music. I always know that I have totally no clue how to mix them properly, and have no clue what tone sounds nice, but today, after my anonymous producer kindly aided me with the guitar recording, I am officially a self-proclaimed guitar tone noob.

Lol.

And because he-who-demanded-not-to-be-named helped me today, I learnt a lot more about guitars. (: On top of that, I got an awesome recording. Thank you so much!!! I owe you for this, and the chicken pie, and the coffee. Heh heh.

There is no reason why I should get a low score for my final project; after all, a good recording should lead to nothing less than an awesome mix. The rest of the mixing shall be my own work, and mine alone. Because it would no longer be my project if anyone else, particularly he-who-demanded-not-to-be-named, help me again. xD

Haha.

I really gotta do more research on guitar recording and mixing. xD

长大了~~

2009-01-01T01:24:00.004+08:00

总觉得自己好像长大了不少，有时却觉得自己跟以前一样爱闹闭气，就像个不懂事的小孩子一样。我在2008年也试过让自己更有自信，让自己出去学跟别人相处，不过怎么做也做不到。

所以今年也会继续努力吧？虽然还是不敢开口与不熟悉的人聊天，不能和别人一样轻易就交到新朋友，也不能像大家一样对自己信心十足，不过我应该会继续地改变自己吧？

嗯，不是应该，是一定啦。怎么就是改不掉说 [应该] 的习惯啊。。。

唉，不管了。总之，那就是我2009年的目标啦。烦死了。。。

大家也要努力哦。

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

So, so, what's everyone's new year's resolution?? xD

I haven't thought of mine... =.=

Lol. Anyway. Just sent a new year sms to everyone. xD ahahha

I actually just got back from a press kit shoot. xD The band I was filming was pretty cool. Kicked the party off with some good songs. Now I can hear some people downstairs karaoke-ing their lungs out in celebration. I hope they don't keep this up for too long.

Anyway. That's it for now? xD

BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED!!!

2008-12-18T15:34:00.002+08:00

There's about 2 hours more before my recording session. T.T

Am bored outta my wits. Lol. Meiyin just ran pass me and said "hello!"

...

AAAAHHHHH.

There's nothing to do AT ALL.

OH OH!!

I got a new phone. :)) Hahaha. W595i. Lovely thing.

Anyways. Recording vocals later... And then yayness! I'm done with the first song~~ I just wanna sleep in, honestly. and I will do just that tomorrow. xD

Hahaha.

Ooooh. Code Geass tonight!! -excited- I like Lelouch. ahaha. He amuses me.

GAAHH.

Laters. T.T

I shall just rot on outside studio 2 for now.

Impolite people

2008-12-16T13:36:00.002+08:00

I found out something new about myself again today.

I REALLY HATE IMPOLITE PEOPLE.

Like, HELLO? It was a very normal question I asked! Can't you even answer "yes" or "no" without looking like you want to fight? Like just a one word reply will waste a million hours of your life? GAWD.

To think I even thanked you nicely after that irritated reply you gave me. I must have been mad.

Airplanes :)

2008-12-15T14:46:00.001+08:00

I went to eat dinner at Changi yesterday, and I realised something:

I really like the sound of airplanes taking off.
(^0^)

Spoilt and unreasonable

2008-12-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

Something happened today and it made me realise that the spoilt and unreasonable side of me isn't dead.
...
I am still a brat, all right. A brat that thinks before she speaks, only to regret it later, and then say "sorry" when she knows that apologizing doesn't mean that things would be all right after that.

I must start to be stricter on myself again; seems like I have allowed myself to relax a little too much, and it's about time I gave myself a harsh scolding and keep myself in line. I will have to make sure that I don't make unreasonable demands of people, too.
...

All this so that I don't hurt anyone else with my selfishness again.

Bored. =x

2008-12-10T16:54:00.003+08:00

I'm bored.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
Waiting for recording to start... Will be doing bass, guitars and vocals today. :)
Yew Jin has kindly lent me his friend's amp.
...
I'm sure you guys know that I'm just trying to find something to talk about. =.= lol. Lame. Anyways.
...
...
...
I know I said I'll do a SasuSaku, but... I haven't actually started. xD Holidays start today, but I might have some filming to do still... don't wanna... T.T Hahaha.
Urgh.
This has got to be the most boring entry ever. =.=
Oh well. PICSPAM. :)
...
Of Ichimoku Ren, my new fascination. LOL.

Eheheheh. ( ^_^;)
That's all for now?

Kitade Nana- Tsukihana

2008-12-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

Kitade Nana's new single for Jigoku Shoujo: Mitsuganae, Tsukihana.
Nothing special, actually, but good song, and tons of cuts. =.=
Anyways, I finished watching the second series, and have already caught up to the latest episode of Mitsuganae already. >.<
I totally love Ichimoku Ren. He's so vain, it's funny to watch. Kikuri going around insulting Hone-Onna, Wanyuudou and Ren is cute too.
Anyway. That's all for now?

JLPT 4

2008-12-07T10:48:00.003+08:00

It's about 4 more hours to JLPT4. xD

I'm gonna do my last minute glance through on the bus later.

After that I'll start on my SasuSaku fanvid. (:

I should add that after watching the first few episodes of Jigoku Shoujo: Futakomori, I like Ichimoku Ren sooo much more than I did in the first episode. xD Lol. Maybe I'll do one for this anime too?

Hungrrryyyy...

Shall grab a bite to eat before I leave for the exam.

Luck to all taking JLPT!!

Yay!

2008-12-05T16:29:00.003+08:00

FINALLY the skin's working fine. =.=

Anyways. Maybe I'll do a SasuSaku (GAWD. You won't believe that I just typed ITASAKU) fanvideo with Azure Moon. :)

I should start listening to Every Little Thing's songs more often now. xD

And did I mention that I really like the Pein/Konan pairing from the Akatsuki? AHAHA. Once those two gets more screen time in Shipuuden I'll do a fanvideo for the two of them. Lol.

Test Post

2008-12-05T11:53:00.001+08:00

Blogskin's nice, but why isn't there a scrollbar? =.=

This is odd....

Lol.

Irritated

2008-12-04T15:33:00.002+08:00

Mum's being so selfish.
She used to tell me, "take your responsibility seriously" and "don't let your teammates do all the work for you".
And now?
We have to do and overnight shoot, and she's saying "let them do it; they're boys, and can stay overnight in school, but you can't because it's dangerous and I'm worried."
DAMN YOU.
Just cos you're worried doesn't mean that I can push all the workload onto them. It's bad enough that I can't be of much help to them when we film in the day; but for god's sake at least let me be PRESENT when they're shooting! I have to know what is going on or I won't be part of the production anymore!

BESIDES.

It's nothing dangerous.

Stop treating me like I'm eight when I'm eighteen.

On a happier note, I made a fanvid. xD Nothing fancy, just something I put together with what little clips I have.

That's all for now. :)

きみのて

2008-12-01T21:49:00.003+08:00

きみのて

By: Every Little Thing

さっきから

降り続いたままの

秋を誘い連れる雨

見事な程、この僕を

隠すように

君に言えたらよかったコトバ

「ありがとう、沢山の日を」

僕はまだ

こうして　少しずつ　わすれてしまうのかな

楽になるためでなく

いい人ぶるつもりでもなく

僕の好きな笑顔を

もう　絶やさないで

僕へと触れつづけた

その手は　やさしかった

何気なく　そして　強く

僕は　いつも　守れてた

この部屋から見えるもの　すべて

今また　遠って見える

君がいた

それでもう　僕の　特別だった

諦めではなく

無理しているつもりでもなく

思いのまま　遠くへ

愛を　解き放って

僕へと触れつづけた

その手は　やさしかった

何気なく　そして　強く

僕は　いつも　守れてた

君があふれた僕の

この手が　握りしめる

さり気なく　だけど　強く

僕はゆくんだ　君からゆく

繰り返しながらも

どうしょうもなくなりながらも

儘ならめ僕は　愛を

見つけて　見つめて

思い果てめまで

僕へと触れつづけた

その手は　やさしかった

何気なく　そして　強く

僕は　いつも　守れてた

まだ降りやまぬ雨は

やがて花を咲かすだろう

僕を隠すためじゃなく

僕をもまた　咲か巣のだ、と

ー日中　降り続いてゆく

秋を誘い連れる雨

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1TB!!

2008-11-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

I got my 1TB HDD!!!

Yes, I'm soo happy. I got a haircut too. Very short now. My head feels so... light.

Am holding on just fine; we'll be starting editing classes on Final Cut Pro next week... I honestly cannot wait for semester 3 to be over. =.= Lol.

Anyways. Shower, and Japanese homework. JLPT4 is next sunday, can you believe it? I can't. It's just that time pasts soo fast this year...

Scary.

Have calmed down.

2008-11-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

THAT...

Was an awesome rant. (points at previous post)

Okay, I won't vanish just yet. Not until I get my grades. =) And then it's bye bye press kit group work, and WELCOME BACK, AUDIO WORK!!!

I've calmed down. In all honesty I was angry. Really angry. But I learnt from Shikamaru. Stop. Sit down. Breath. AND THINK. (GAWD, my brain's working! It's actually working!!)

It's only for a few more months. I will be fine. If I'm not... I have a lot of people I can talk to. =) Thanks guys.

My eyes still hurt from all that crying just now, though. =.=

I'm still crying over things like these, huh... =.= Feels pretty odd, but whatever. It's nice to cry every now and then.

Nice no more.

2008-11-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I can't act; not everyone is born a freaking natural in front of the camera.
I'm sorry I'm so useless while you guys are all so brillliant; I'm human, you see, and I'm NOT you.
I'm sorry I look like I'm always standing by doing nothing while you guys take the camera and do all the work; it's just that I never have the chance to try to use the camera since you guys are always hogging it to yourselves.
(I wanted to be Director of Photography first, remember? Then you guys decide that I should be the Producer and left it at that; what's a producer to do when her production team is always saying, "I'll do this, I'll do that, and you, producer dear, can do the acting like a pro actress would or get out of our way" WHEN I'M FREAKING NOT A GOOD ACTRESS AND YOU KNOW IT?)
I'm sorry I'm always giving that -.- expression; I'm not like you guys, you see, I can't express myself well. WHY CAN'T YOU FREAKING UNDERSTAND THAT?

I'm sorry you guys see me as a nice sweet girl who can be pushed around and still smile at you after that and say "it's okay", BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL AIN'T ONE.

You dare say "You are the only one who hasn't done anything at all" after I tried so hard? You DARE tell me that after I tried my best to sit down and rack my brains for ideas with all of you even though my darned brain is barely WORKING? YOU DARE SAY THAT AFTER ALL THIS TIME?

IF YOU GUYS AREN'T MY TEAMMATES I WOULD HAVE KICKED YOUR ASSES THE MOMENT THIS PROJECT STARTED.

You guys think you're the only ones who can handle the camera? So much that you wouldn't give me a chance to do the shooting during the assignments? So much that I can only merely be an "actress" or nothing at all?

Sure, you guys are great at this and all, and compared to all of you I am indeed not as skilled. I admired and respected your skills. But you guys didn't see me the way I saw you, am I right? I will probably always be "inferior" in your eyes.

I'm on the verge of breaking down. Maybe I already did.

Since I'm not needed, and possibly only a hindrance to all of you, then I do believe that I can just disappear, right?

...

2008-10-25T00:16:00.001+08:00

It just feels like I'm being left behind all of a sudden. I'm merely watching everyone's backs as they continue to move forward.

What should I do so I can walk again? I have been trying, and trying, and trying so hard. Yet no one seems to realize it. I thought I was walking alongside everyone. And then I fell, but I don't know when that happened. I fell, and I couldn't get up. No one seemed to realize I was gone. No one saw me walking alongside them in the first place. No one helped me up, and I am now merely sitting here, beaten, unable to move, and unsure of what to do.

I like to be alone, but maybe, just maybe, this time, loneliness is too much for me.

I guess I'm still weak, after all.

Hellooooo

2008-10-19T23:46:00.008+08:00

Isn't anyone gonna tell me "Welcome back to blogger"?? It's been more than a month since I last posted, you know!!

Hahahaa. Been pretty busy (and lazy) to blog recently. But of course I have been alive! Have been watching Naruto on top of Naruto Shipuuden. Have finished up till the 104th episode. That took around a week. =.=

Oh yeah, oh yeah, I said before that Bluebird and Sunao na Niji was the best pair of Naruto Shipuuden opening and ending by far (in my opinion at least) before, but you know, I found another awesome pair!! The latest two are pretty nice: Inoue Joe's Closer has very nice compositions, and Halcali's Long Kiss Goodbye just seems to get more addictive everytime I listen to it.

Here's the opening, Closer:

And the ending, sang live, Long Kiss Goodbye:

And for more news: NewS is going to release a new album, Color!! Yay! xD And and! Towa Iro no Koi is (FINALLY) going to be released along with the album~~ Can't be any happier. I know this news is already ancient though. xD I'm a bit slower these few months for some reason. =.=

Anyways. I'm... pretty hungry. Maybe I should eat something now?

Bleh!!

2008-09-17T17:46:00.003+08:00

I'M ALIVE! Tsk. =.=

Sorry about the MIA. Been too lazy to blog. Well? Sunao na Niji was good, wasn't it? Shall I recommend a totally different genre this time? xD

"The World" by Nightmare is the first opening song for Death Note (anime). I know it's late, but I've just started watching it... Three days ago. =.= I'm almost done; 5 more episodes to go. The way Near plays with toys and taunt Light at the same time is soo cute.

Ehh. Anyway. Here, have a listen:

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In the meantime, Naruto Shipuuden is at episode 75 (only) and I'm loving it. xD Although the manga's waaay faster, reading chinese text just kills the mood. I'd rather watch the anime and read the english subtitles. xD

As for what else I'm doing other than catching up on animes... I have been playing Angels Online. Yeah. xD Gaming's back in my life.

Going to buy my keyboard controller on Friday too. And then I'll have composing back in my life as well.

That's all for now~

Sunao na Niji

2008-09-03T00:04:00.003+08:00

Sunao na Niji (Honest Rainbow) by Surface is Naruto Shipuuden's fifth ending song. I have to say that, together with Bluebird by Ikimonogakari, this is one of the best pair of starting and ending songs. Too bad it got replaced by Broken Youth after Episode 63. =.= It makes me feel like crying everytime I hear it. And that is why I like it so much, I guess.

Still. Have a listen to it. =D

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Ade's house. :D

2008-08-28T20:19:00.002+08:00

I'm staying over tonight at Ade's place! =D

Heh heh heh. Well... I said I would blog... so here I am! Though I dunno what I'm supposed to blog about. =.=

Hmm. I'll come over to your place another night Risa! (^0^) Empire Earthhhhh. :D Ade says she will play with me later. =D Yay. I'll play Cabal later too. We're supposed to write stories but we haven't. =.= Later, I guess?

Aaah. I have to finish some sketches too. =.= Oh well. Tomorrow. =D

Ok. That's all for now?

Byebye. :D

booo.

2008-08-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

So I'm not a very consistent blogger. xD Took me a while to realise that.

Anyway. Going to crash at Adeline's house on Thursday. :D It's been a while since we've met~~ Hahaha. Ehh... but that means I won't be able to go to the party held at timbre with those guys from school. =( A little sad, cos it's fun to be with them, but yay! Finally get to meet Adeline again after what, 8 months, I think? =D

Nothing going on much recently, except that there's no school this entire week cos there are some technical issues and stuff going on. So BOO. I'm officially a slacker, and when school finally resumes and when I have to face those theory notes again... I'm going to have a hard time trying to switch off slacker mode. =.=

Work was boring as usual. No customers, no one to talk to... =.= Thank goodness I'm only on 5 hours shift now. No more 8 hours. That's another good thing~! Also also!!! I've finished download for Ouran High School Host Club today, and cleared 17 episodes!! I'm proud of myself. xD So... 9 more episodes to go tomorrow! I'm currently downloading Naruto and Naruto Shipuuden, too!! Gosh, it's been a long time since I immersed myself with the Naruto world. But I'm not complaining. :D Sasuke, Sakuraaaaaaa~~~ I'm back for more SasuSaku loveeee... Hahaha. After Naruto, I guess I'll be drowning myself with some other older animes which I haven't watched since my mother unsubscribed SCV? Such as Saiyuki, the .hack// series and Rurouni Kenshin!

Wheee... a few more things before I end, I guess. I'm on an ice cream rampage recently, even though I was called odd by some people cos the weather's pretty cold lately. Did you guys know? Mint-flavored ice cream is heavenly. Try it. Strawberries and cream=plenty of love too. Although it seems like an odd combination, it's great. A little sugar on the strawberries won't hurt too. Although be sure to brush your teeth well after that. Cavities are scary. Heh heh. =D

I guess that's all for today! Will blog again... probably when I'm at Adeline's place?? Haha.

Well... Until then~~

Byebye~~!!

Heeheee

2008-08-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

Stole this off ade's blog. xD

1. My ex: Experiences? I've became wiser because of them.

2. I am listening to: Kawada Mami's Undelete

3. Maybe I should: eat something soon.

4. I love: myself. After all, if you don't, you can't love others, and neither will others love you.

5. My best friends: are awesome.

6. I don't understand: a lot of things. =.=

7. I lost: my way.

8. I'm tired of: feeling.

9. The meaning of my screen name is: Ukyo?? It's just a name I really like. :)

10. 'Love' is: trust and sincerity.

11.Somewhere, somebody: needs to be reached out to.

12. I will always: be me.

13.Forever seems: to be nonexistent in my dictionary.

14. My cell phone: helps me stay connected to the people I love.

15. When I woke up this morning: I wondered why I woke up in the dead of the night. xD

16. I get annoyed when: people broadcast their lives to the whole world when they talk on the phone.

17. Kisses are the best: when it actually means something.

18. Today I: had to stay attached (yet detached) to those people again.

19. Tonight I am: going to get some writing done.

20. Tomorrow I will: face midi theory head on. T.T

21. I really want: for nothing but peace and quiet.

22. People say I am: odd. xD

Hee.

2008-08-12T14:48:00.002+08:00

So. I'm back today. xD

Erm. Sleeeeeppyyyy. Slept close to one last night and woke up like 3.30am in the morning. Couldn't sleep at all, so I played... CABAL~!! I ended up sleeping in the bus on the way to school this morning and gawd, I swear I hate giggly flirty girls. They were making a hell lot of noise giggling about goodness knows what and putting make up. Yes. In the bus. =.= I could hear them over my music and the noise the bus was making. Grr.

Anyway, ear training today!! It was fun~ Patrick treated us coffee after that. xD So now, although I'm tired, I can't sleep... =.=

Everyone's olympics-obssessed nowadays. =.= It gets kinda irritating after a while when everywhere you go all you hear is "Did you watch so-and-so's badminton match against so-and-so??" or "OMG I can't believe -insert country/player name here- won/lost that game!!!!"

=.= Sheesh, people. Pipe down already. We knowwww. The news reports the results every single daaaayyy. And you don't have to tell the whole world which player/country you're supporting and which player/country you think suck, thank you very much. I find the games really interesting too, but when it's over-gushed by everyone it's just plain annoying.

What was that? I sound grouchy? Maybe. Well. I'm hungry. And tired. Maybe some food and a nap will put me in a better mood. xD

It's been a while~~

2008-08-11T19:16:00.003+08:00

It's...been... a while. ^0^;

I've been happily busy all this time~~ Cleared the recording assignment, finished the cubase mixdown too, and now we're finally doing midi. :)

Ehh... I caught the flu last Wednesday. =.= Been sick since. On the verge of losing my voice. Hahaha. Who cares. On another note...

I love ear training. :) It's probably the only test I have confidence in passing anyway. xD I can't seem to hear high frequencies too well though. O.O Mid frequencies OK. :) Maybe after the 10-band I'll go on to 31-band? Now that will be really a pain.

OH! I've been watching Gatekeepers 21 too. Finished it, actually. :) Miu's irritating. I love Yukino. Haha. She's been my favorite since Gatekeepers. Too bad I can't find it anywhere. Only 21 can be found now... I forgot to mention... Ayane's just awesome. xD

Ah, I've been watching Peacemaker Kurogane again too. What can I say... I still luurvvee Soji and Shinpachi. xD

Oh wells. That's all for today's rambling. I'll have to go buy some recordable cds now. Have to burn my cubase project and hand it up tp Giri tomorrow. Midi assignment planning starts now. (YAY!)

Mata ashita ne~~ (If I don't post tomorrow, then take this as mata raishu... or something. xD)

Tired

2008-07-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

Been working on my mix really often lately. Am getting kind of tired. =.=

I will do my best.

Haha. I actually meant to post yesterday, but I forgot. Anyway, ear training on Thursday was awesome. We had a test to see where we stood before we even had proper lessons on how to identify which frequency got cut or boosted. I want to see how much I improve by the end of the one-and-a-half month training. xD

A new batch of students will be coming in next week. Can't wait to meet them~ I've heard that there are about five out of the twenty who are girls. Population of girls is increasing at SAE, so I demand a new TOILET! Hahaha. Sheesh, it's not fair that the boys get a multi cubicle-d toilet, and there's only one cubicle for girls. =.= Fine, so maybe guys outnumber girls 10:1 there, but hey, it's a pain whenever I try to turn the knob of the toilet door and find out that it's locked.

Urgh. I'm hungry. Shall go munch on chips now. xD

And I know I said I won't talk about JE here, but I can't resist: My Hey! Say! JUMP Your Seed single is here!! I can't wait to watch the DVD!! (>.<)

Lalala!

2008-07-23T21:27:00.001+08:00

I'm a happy girl. xD

Enough said.

Anyways, we've got Patrick again tomorrow for ear training. =x

Oh oh, guess what? Our recording assignment deadline is pushed back to the 4th of August, which means we have one more week to touch up on everything!! Yay!

Hahaha.

Jigoku Shoujo and Neo Angelique Abyss in another 15 minutes~ Double yay~

Lol.

Ciao~

Oh nooo.

2008-07-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

I'm doing this too often, but hey, if it keeps me blogging, why not? xD Anyway, 50 more questions.

"50 Random Questions" by: dramanerd246

1. what's your name? Fiona
2. how old are you? Turning 18 soon.
3. what's your favorit color? Black and Purple.
4. do you play any sports? what? Badminton, Basketball.
5. what are you considered in school? The one who gets teased. =.=
6. how many siblings do you have? None.
7. are you the oldest, middle, or youngest in the family? Middle, if I count my younger cousins
8. what is your favorite holiday? I don't like holidays.
9. what is your favorite season? Winter~
10. where do you like to shop? I'm not a shopper~
11. what type of books do you like to read? Horror and Fantasy
12. have you ever been to camp? Yep!
13. do you do drugs? Never.
14. do you have any tattos? No.
15. do you have any piercings? No.
16. what is your future career? Hmm. I know what I want to do but whether I succeed or not is another story. No one can tell the future, after all.
17. what grade are you in? I'm doing diploma now. So what grade is that? O.O
18. what do you like on your pizza? Cheeeessseeee.
19. if you could be one character in the musical Aladdin what would it be? I don't wanna be any character. I like to be myself.
20. if you could do a kissing scene with any celebrity who would it be? No one, thanks.
21. if you could marry any president who would it be?(they can be dead already) I don't wanna be a president's wife. So stressed. =.=
22. what songs would be on the soundtrack to your life? This is one hard question. I guess it would be Ikimonogakari's Blue Bird!
23. what is your favorite musical? HIgh School Musical. xD
24. do you know anyone name Carson? Nope.
25. what side of the bed do you sleep on? The side next to the wall. Lol.
26. do you collect rocks? No?
27. what was your last note about? Midi Theory. O.O
28. have you ever ridden a horse: Yep!
29. have you ever fed a cow? Yep!
30. have you ever milked a cat? HAR?!
31. pink or purple? Purple~~
32. black or white? Black.
33. have you ever gone with out underwear? No. Lol.
34. when's the last time you ran a mile? I dunno. Haven't been running recently, that's for sure.
35. have you ever danced in the rain? Walked, ran, yes. Dance? ERRR.
36. what are 3 words that describe you? weird, detached and quiet... I guess.
37. whats your favorite magazine? Don't read them.
38. what kind of quallities do you want in a man? Erm. Just be honest.
39. are you a righty or a lefty? Righty~
40. how many pairs of shoe's do you own? Three.
41. what's your favorite video game? Don't play. them Only online games. xD
42. what type of shoe's are you wearing? Not wearing any now, but usually sandals.
43. do you like to bungee jump? LOL. Sure.
44. do you like victoria secret? No...?
45. is you'r hair an unnatural color? No.
46. have you dyed your hair? Yep.
47. have you broken any bones? Yes. Lol.
48. is your last name EFFIN? WHAT?!
49. have you ever been in a movie? Dur.
50. have you ever been to a premier? Yep!
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Hahahah

2008-07-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be my final mixing session. :) I'll have to get some of my classmates to listen to my mix, cos I don't trust my own ears: the kick drum sounds funny after EQ-ing and I have no idea which frequency I should cut or boost to make it sound better.

I hope the lecturers don't ask to listen to the reference song during my presentation or I'm so gonna die. If you don't listen to the original song then my mix sounds pretty OK, but if you do, then you'll realize that my mix lack the power that the original has. =.=

I wonder if there's anything I can do to make it sound "livelier"? Hahaha. Oh well. I'll wait for classmates' opinions tomorrow.

Today... I went to school for nothing. -.- Aircon wasn't working and class was cancelled cos there wasn't a cooler place we could go. It's like suana in the demo room. =.= But after a while the aircon started working again~~ Hahaha.

Went to Carl's Jr. with Streisand, Samson and Ryan after that and watched them eat. Lol.

It's scary how they can put away such huge burgers in a span of say, 15 minutes? Hahaha. The portions were huge and I definitely wouldn't have been able to finish one set by myself. O.O

I'm kinda sleepy... Had a lot of fun talking to Jeremy, Skyla, Yadi and Ian while waiting for the aircon to come back on. Patrick went to watch a movie cos he couldn't tahan the heat in school hahaha. (>.<)

Yadi is mean. =.= He saw me talking to Jeremy and said, "Oi, Fiona, why you still sitting around doing nothing? Hurry help the uncle clean the school la!"

Wah, Yadi, you think I superwoman ah. Lol. I try to help you install protools onto your computer and you treat me like that! Tsk. Haha but in the end Giri was the one who managed to get the software installed. =p

Oh wells. Anyway. Music appreciation tomorrow again~ I can just kick back now that I've already done my presentation. Now all I have to worry about is the recording's presentation, which should take place next week. =.=

I must finish my logbook soon. Hope I don't delete it without saving again, like last time, or I'm really screwed.

Byebye. :)

Lost Wings

2008-07-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

Changed my blog song to Kajiura Yuki's "Lost Wings". It's a BGM from Tsubasa Chronicle.

Have been venturing more towards instrumentals more than usual.

Anyway, here's another set of 50 questions. Risa made me do it again. xD Can't say I hate it. Lol.

50 Random Questions

Name something that made you frown today?: My internet crashing on me.
How do you feel about being the age you are?: Nothing special.
Kiss with your eyes open or closed?: closed I guess?
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a mist: change a mist? I don't get it. So million bucks please.
Are you rich?: No.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?: Haha. Not particularly.
What were you doing at 7:00 AM?: I just woke up. Lol.
What were you doing 1 hour ago?: Watching animania.
What ipod do you own?: Ipod Nano.
What was the last thing you said aloud?: "I WANT ICE CREAM." xD
How many different things did you drink today?: Three~
Are you ticklish?: Yes. Haha.
Is success in your future?: Maybe.
Are you a heavy sleeper?: No.
Was today a good day?: It was OK.
What are you listening to?: Kajiura Yuki's "Mai"
Does someone like you right now?: Hahaha.
Who is the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with ?: I don't remember. =.= It's been ages since I had a good talk with anyone.
Where is the last place you went?: KFC, this morning.
Your favorite romantic movie?: Not a particular fan of movies.
Is there something you will never forget?: Of course.
How is your hair?: It's in good condition, thank you very much.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?: I don't take pictures? Hahaha. xD I guess it's with Selvie, Eli, Aaron and Risa.
What were you doing at midnight last night?: Getting ready to sleep.
What does your last sent text say?: It says "DAMN. hahaha whatever. I don't care." xD Sent to Risa. Lol.
Do you wish on 11:11?: Nope, though I kinda wanna try. xD
Have you ever played naked twister?: No?
First thing you notice of the opposite/same sex?: Eyes, I guess.
How do you feel about Valentine's day?: Nothing special; just another day.
Can you keep a secret?: Sure.
So what's on your mind?: The character designs for my next book.
Which shoe do you put on first?: Right.
Favorite colour(s)?: Black, purple.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?: Nope.
Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?: Yes. Lol. It's funny.
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?: No?
Is it easier to forgive or forget?: Forget.
Do you laugh a lot?: Not really, but more than usual now, at least.
Are you happy with that?: I guess?
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Hmm... maybe.
Do you want kids?: I don't mind.
Last thing received in the mail?: A school letter asking me to collect my graduation certificate. xD
Are you random?: Sure. Lol.
Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?: Yeah, once. Never did it again.
If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?: Please do. :)
What's the last thing you said out loud now?: Nothing. I'm alone and I don't talk to myself. =.=
Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?: Yep!
Do you believe you can change someone?: I guess I could try...
Something you dislike?: Vegetables. O.O
Do you have trust issues?: Yep. I say it loud and clear, and proudly, too.

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Presentation

2008-07-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

I'm still not too good with standing in front of many people and speaking. Did the presentation today, and when I tried to make eye contact with my classmates I just freaked. Lol.

So Streisand suggested that I look at the wall or at the space between the people I'm speaking to instead of looking into their eyes. Hmm. I might try that when I have to do presentation for my recording assignment. xD

How do you guys get used to speaking in front of so many people, anyway? Gah. I get unnerved everytime I feel so many pairs of eyes staring back at me. =.= Wonder if I'll ever get used to it.

We'll be sitting in for our senior's presentation of their final work on Thursday~ The teachers reckon we should watch our seniors so that we'll know what to do when it's our turn to do our final presentation. =.= Gawd, just kill me.

Giri's taking us for midi theory tomorrow. Oh joy, theory. xD Haha, just kidding. It's a bit dry and all, but I'll just have to bear with it.

Feeling a bit sleepy now, so maybe I'll go take a rest or something. Will have to read the midi theory notes later to refresh myself on the stuff he talked about on Monday so that I won't be lost in tomorrow's lesson.

Byebye.

Music Appreciation

2008-07-14T21:36:00.005+08:00

I've been spelling words wrongly recently... Like earlier, "words" became "wodrs" and "download" became "donwload"... and also "appreciation" became "appreciaiton"...

-__-

Anyway, music appreciation class tomorrow, taken by Patrick. xD Should be fun. He gave us assignment to do. -.- Supposed to research on a song that has been covered by other artistes, and trace the genre of that song to like, the 70s and 80s... progression of time and how the genre "evolved", so to speak. We're also supposed to find out what infleunced the original band intodoing that particular genre of music. Preferably no genre that we're particularly fond of or familiar with.

Initially I researched on Carpenters, because I found this really nice song of theirs that Rie Fu covered, titled (They Long To Be) Close To You. Finished everything and went to school today, and Ian happily said, "I'm doing the Carpenters!"

I was like WTF. Turns out he's also doing the same song, only different cover artiste. Tsk. So I came home feeling kinda panicky cos the presentation's tomorrow, and dug out all the other mini researches I did before I decided on the Carpenters. Came across Hirai Ken's cover of the Eagles' Desperado, but damn, I couldn't find the cover version of the song, so I gave up on that one. After a while more of googling and wikipedia hunt, I stumbled on X Japan. xD Turns out that two members of Guns N' Roses covered a ballad of theirs, called "Endless Rain".

I also found High and Mighty Color covering Luna Sea's "Rosier", but I was more unfamiliar with X Japan's genre, and I highly preferred High and Mighty Color's music, actually... so I took X Japan up, since we were asked to try not to pick what we liked. -.-

Quite interesting, really. If only the words "punk rock" and "metal" didn't appear so often. Bleh. xD

After all this research and understanding of the "metal" and "progressive" rock genre.... I still don't like this genre at all. But it's cool, I guess. Even ballads sound so heavy metal coming from heavy metal bands. >.<>

(No longer know what I'm saying. xD)

I'm having a headache now cos I was previewing X-Japan's songs for the research, and GOSH. It's really loud and screamo. >.<

To think I might be mixing this genre in the future... Life's gonna be hell... Hahaha. xD

Anyway that's all for now. Back ache, headache, butt ache.... ahhaha.

Gahh..

Byebye.

lame. -.-

2008-07-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Haha. I told Risa that I was bored and she sent me this stupid list of questions to do. Because I have no life, I shall indulge her. xD After doing it... I guess it's pretty fun, after all. xD

1.Do you like having your picture taken?

No. I'd prefer to be behind the camera.

2.Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non?

No.

3.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why?

Japan. Isn't it obvious why? Go to www.jebitsandpieces.blogspot.com to understand.

5.What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime?

I dunno, taunt a crocodile?

6.Would you ever do that?

Hell no.

7.Have you ever done crossword puzzles?

Erm, duh.

8.Ever actually completed one?

That goes without saying?

9.Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it.

"His majesty is known as dorm supervisor Jin Jin."

xD It's from a manga, in case you're wondering.

10.Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio.

"In the land of twilight, under the moon~~"

(Kajiura Yuki)

11.Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams?

When I dreamt of T-rexes. xD

12.Would you put up posters in your room?

No?

13.Can you sing?

Sure, but the glass might break.

14.Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks?

Sometimes?

15.What's your favorite color of post-it note?

None in particular.

16.How many cassette tapes do you own?

17.How many cd's do you own?

Too many to count.

18.Ever bought a cd for just one song?

Often. xD

19.What would your perfect day consist of?

Snow, steaming hot ramen and green tea, a good book and good music playing at the background.

20.Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone on line?

"HELLO?! HELLOOO?! -bzzzzz- I can't hear you!! -bzzzz-"

And after that I hang up.

21.Have you ever written a survey?

Hasn't everyone?

22.How about a song? If so share it.

Heh.

23.Or maybe a poem? If so share it or one of them.

Here's a really old one I did for a fanfiction (Kinda weird and silly, now that I look at it.):

Painless death, watery grave
With much regrets, here I lay;
Battered body, tattered soul,
Amidst the flowers, amidst the snow.
Tearless sorrow, anguished heart;
An everlasting love, torn apart.
Broken promises, severed ties,
A wedding flower, shriveled up.

24.Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time?

Nope.

25.Do you read your horoscope?

Yeah, for the heck of it.

26.If so, do you base your day on it?

No? I forget what I read all the time. xD

27.Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why?

Don't like gum, so mouthwash.

28.Do you floss?

Yep.

29.Are you addicted to napster?

Ah? No?

30.How many times a year about are you sick?

Dunno? Once or twice maybe? Only a bit more often this year, somehow.

31.Ever been in an airplane?

Yup.

32.If so where were you flying to?

When are we talking about? If it's the most recent, then I flew to Hokkaido just this January.

33.What radio station to you listen to most?

FM933

34.What color are your shoes?

Not wearing any now, but usually white.

35.Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear?

Well... If you say so...

36.Do you know how to play dominos?

Yeah.

37.Or do you think I just mean pizza by that?

...

38.Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind?

Pepperoni.

39.What color are your eyes?

Black.

40.How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime?

How the hell should I know? They just keep coming.

41.Describe your bedroom, include all details.

Has a toilet, a bed filled with lots of stuffed toys, a radio...

42.Name one person your life is made better by.

Aaron. :)

43.Would you or have you ever shaven your head?

That's equivalent to killing me, bimbotic as it sounds. xD

44.How about someone else's?

Love to try. Only then I would have to run so that whoever that person I have just shaved can't kill me.

45.Can you do math with ease?

Hell no.

46.What size is your computer screen?

17''

47.If you could only talk to one person online who would that be?

I don't talk to people unless people talk to me, remember?

48.Name your favorite type of music and why.

No particular favorite. Depends on my mood, actually.

49.Are you a vegetarian?

No. Lol. The prospect of me being a vegetarian is hilarious.

50.How about an aspiring actor/actress?

Har?!

51.What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance?

Kajiura Yuki. :)

52.Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors?

The hell?! (O.O)

53.Name one of your passions in life.

Passion? Eh... voluntaring at the animal shelter?

54.What's your least favorite time of day?

Noon. Hella hot.

55.Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guiter, bass, drummer, and why?

Again, please refer to www.jebitsandpieces.blogspot.com to find out.

56.Do you use hairspray or gel?

Sometimes, to keep my curls in place when I don't tie my hair up.

57.Describe your favorite meal.

Anything without vegetables and steamed fish. Bean sprouts are fine. Dry rice, no gravy please. Strawberries or apples after that as well, thank you~~

58.What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes?

Black?

59.Ever listen to classical music?

Yep.

60.Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it?

Lol. There. I just did it. xD

61.Do you find you use internet language when writing notes irl?

No.

62.What songs would be on your ideal cd?

Songs by Kajiura Yuki, Hinokiya, Ikimonogakari and Kanno Yoko would be most ideal. I know I pimp JE boybands and all, but honestly, their songs aren't all that fantastic compared to so many other singers and composers.

63.Say one thing you've learnt today.

Characters who are completely indifferent to anything are really a pain, but oh, so much fun to write.

64.What is the best present you've ever given someone else?

The truth.

65.What is the best present someone else has ever given to you?

Respect.

66.So hey, what's your full name?

Why do you care?

67.Describe yourself while drunk

I'm underaged. -.- Don't plan to get drunk even if I'm not.

68.How big are the windows in your house?

How the hell should I know and why the hell should I care?

69.Do you wear a watch?

Yeah, but the battery died on me just yesterday.

70.What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else?

Hmm. Lol. That's for me to know and for you to... keep guessing. :)

71.What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated?

Hmm. Between 3 to 5 years. Keep guessing.

72.How many mirrors do you have?

Er. One in the bathroom? If you mean pocket mirrors, I don't have one. -.- I'll just break it.

73.Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on.

"She's hella weird."

74.Have you ever sailed?

Yep.

75.How fast can you run?

Dunno. Last time I ran was when I was still in secondary school.

76.What do you believe in?

Nothing.

77.How long does it take you to get ready to go out?

15 minutes after notice.

78.Do you shower daily? If not how often?

Duh.

79.What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so?

Nothing. I'm surprised myself, cos I always complain about how my life sucks, but when this question pops up, I don't really have an answer.

80.Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it.

Heh heh. Super speed! Zooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom. What would I do with it? Hmm. Play pranks on people. Lol.

81.Are candles romantic or a fire hazard?

A bit of both, I guess.

82.Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small.

Listened to Kajiura Yuki's "Somewhere I Belong".

83.Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings. rings?

Necklaces and bracelets, yeah. Anklets are a pain, so no. No rings, too. Used to have earrings until it sunk into my ears due to infection and had to get it pulled out forcefully from the back. Have a phobia of earrings and piercings now.

84.What colors are you wearing right now?

White shirt, blue shorts.

85.How often do you change the sheets on your bed?

Once every four days or so.

86.Have you ever gotten lost? If so explain.

Lost? LOL. You don't wanna know, man.

87.What's on your computer desk?

Don't have one? I do have a study table though.

88.How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment?

Dunno. About three?

89.When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words?

Used to. Kicked the habit though.

90.Which landmark would you climb if you could?

Don't like climbing; ain't a monkey.

91.Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books?

hmm... no?

92.Ever seriously questioned your sanity?

LOL. You think?

93.Can you breakdance?

I'll break my bones first. -.-

94.What's in your fridge right now?

Milk. :) Yum.

95.How many people do you live with?

Four other psychos.

96.Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area?

Eheheheh. -Dodges question-

97.What is the strangest thing you've ever done?

LOL. This is, again, for me to know, and for you to guess.

98.Name an instrument you've never played but would like to.

Cello.

99.Have you ever been on tv or the radio?

No? Why would I be?

100.What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you?

Backstab, I guess.

101.Are you a fast typer?

Depends on your definition of "fast".

102.How high have you counted before getting bored?

Eh? -Blank look-

103.Describe how you sleep. (ie. your position and/or how you fall asleep)

Leaning to my right, facing the wall.

104.Are you straight, bi, gay?

...

NO COMMENT.

105.Do you ever do something else while on the computer?

...What do you mean by "something else"? All that should be done when my computer is turned on is to go on L! and blog, and search for latest JE stuff to post about on Bits and Pieces... and do research for school assignments and stuff... right?

106.What is the most expensive item you own?

Dunno. My laptop, I guess?

107.How about the least expensive?

Oho. Too many to list.

108.What's your favorite card game to play?

Don't play cards.

109.What do you do online?

Fangirl, go on facebook, stay connected to the JE world.

110.Name some stores you've bought clothes in before.

Cotton on, Bossini...

111.Have you ever read a book and not understood it? If so which one?

I'll be hanged if that happens.

112.Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one?

I know I'm dense and all, but I'm not that dumb.

113.Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theirs?

Oho. I suck at understanding slang and accents, so yes.

114.Are you easily influenced by other people, or currant trends?

No. I'm detached, remember?

115.What makes you unique in your own opinion?

Dunno?

116.Name your worst quality.

I'm a pessimist.

117.Name your best.

I actually have one?

118.What would you like to do with your life?

Live it honestly and properly, I guess.

119.Do you blowdry your hair?

I do when it doesn't dry in time for me to tie it before I leave for school or work.

120.How many clocks are in your house?

Two.

121.Are they all set on the same time?

No, lol. They were initially, then one started moving faster than the other. Lol.

122.Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time?

Yeah.

123.What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning?

"AAAAH. School again."

124.Which browser do you use?

Safari

125.Do you bite your nails?

URGH. No.

126.Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf?

Maybe?

127.Ever been to a farm?

Yeah!

128.Tell me about your dream last night.

I don't...recall...?

129.Ever seen a shooting star?

Yep!

130.Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone.

If I haven't told anyone, what makes you think that I'm gonna tell YOU?

131.Do your days fly by or seem to last forever?

Don't they always? 2008 seems faster than usual.

132.Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel?

No. Don't want to either.

133.Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel?

Nope.

134.What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there?

I don't care?

135.When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go?

Why not?

136.How are you feeling right now?

Back ache. -.-

137.Have you ever written anything on your skin?

Yeah.

138.If so what?

Telephone numbers, answers to a test question... when I was in primary school. xD

139.Which website do you frequent most often?

Littlix! Also known as L! for short.

140.What color is most of your clothes?

Black.

141.Do you own any plants?

A pretty cactus. :)

142.Are things as bad as they seem?

Who knows?

143.Describe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you.

Aaron's brought me out on bike rides whenever I was down. :)

144.Ever looked directly at the sun?

Yeah. Probably the dumbest thing I've ever done, cos my eyes stung after that. -.-

145.Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse?

Yeah!

146.What's your favorite cereal?

Don't like cereals.

147.Who do you miss?

And why do you think you have the right to know?

148.Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try.

Err... My grandma's death.

149.Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal.

Knocked a stupid punk's teeth out by accident cos he was bullying me. >.<

150.Say something else about yourself you've never told anyone before.

No way, man. xD

Blaaah.

2008-07-10T16:01:00.002+08:00

The test was harder than expected. =x Kenneth said it wasn't hard, but... Urgh. I think I did really badly.

Remembered lotsa stuff that I studied, but half of what I spent memorising DIDN'T come out. xD Hahaha. So I was a little like, "WTF." I seem to always focus on stuff that don't come out on the actual test itself. XD Haha. Let's see what I forgot:

I forgot the symbol for a capacitor, messed up calculations for one decibels and one electronics question, wrote 30 seconds instead of 30 milliseconds for one of the questions, forgot all about reverberation... Patch bays didn't come out and I felt like banging my head on the wall... What else? Oh, forgot about stereosonic miking technique, too. I know I did very badly for the section on studio practices. =x

When we flipped the paper over and saw the first question, all of us (namely Jeremy, Johnson and I) gasped and started to panic. Why? Cos we forgot to revise phase shift. Hahaha. The first question had something to do with phase calculation or something. xD

It was very funny actually. We were all so nervy and panicky, it was quite a sight. I guess I MIGHT scrape a pass... but I definitely won't score high. -.- In fact, the possibility of me failing is pretty high. Like, 70(fail):20(scrape a pass):10(pass well)?

Haha, oh well. I need to learn how to calm down before a test. xD

Lalala~ Now that's over... I need food. -.-

Bye bye.

Mug-for-test marathon

2008-07-09T08:01:00.002+08:00

Today is the mug-for-test marathon. :)

I'll have to meet Sophia to borrow some stuff from her after this post, and I'll come right back with junk food to munch on while I study.

It's the test tomorrow~ I shall spend the day revising... Tsk, this is the second time I spelt "spend" as "spen". Something's wrong with me. Earlier just now I went to the forums and did the same thing, and now I did it again. -.-

I shall get something creamy... (^0^) Hahaha.

I'll see you later, Selvie. Do you know if Elisann is coming too? SMS me when you're reaching, and I'll leave the gate unlocked. Lock it when you come in, please. -.-

That's all for today. I might pop in again before animania; by that time I should be done revising, so I might just decide to post again.

...

But don't count on it.

Random

2008-07-08T00:07:00.002+08:00

It's ten past midnight as I type.
I'm hungry, wide awake... and very happy. :D

You don't have to know why, but I just am. Happier than I have ever been for the past few days. I'm probably going to feel disappointed and sad and stressed again when I get to school tomorrow because we're starting on midi theory already, and there's still that test on Thursday that freaks me out, but no matter.

I live for "now".

The present is more than enough to make me forget all the anxiety I've been experiencing because of that wretched theory test.

Things seem to happen for a reason today, though I can't seem to understand it yet.

It's fifteen minutes past midnight now.

I'm still hungry, a little tired now, but still on cloud nine.

Good night. :)

Bleh.

2008-07-07T14:06:00.003+08:00

Giri's on MC today. -.-

When I was told, I was all -____________-

But but but, what was funnier was that Skyla actually came back for classes, because it's already the second semester. xD She walked in with Ian and Ryan when Johnson and I were talking, and after a while, Tien came... followed by our supervisor, Tee, and he told us:

"You guys can go home for today. There's no replacement teacher."

...

He left the room, and we were all like, "WAHH HO SEH. We wake up for nothing!" Hahaha. xD

Skyla's expression was priceless. She sat there with that "WTF" look, and we were like, "Skyla sweh sia, finally come back for lesson but got no teacher."

LOL.

She just sat there and looked slightly pissed, then she got up and said that she was going to work. xD I went with Ian to meet the brothers for breakfast, but in the end I changed my mind and headed back to school again to study. Johnson was doing his assignment, Musa too, and Haoyang did his signal flow test! Congrats on passing! Tien was studying too... We are a very stressed up lot.

Lol.

And now... I'm home! Hahaha. xD

I'm hungryyyy....

JE Bits and Pieces, and Cream and Mint

2008-07-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

JE Fandom (now changed to JE Bits and Pieces) can still be found here. Check there for updates on JE stuff, though I won't be as consistent as many other dedicated JE fans out there, so don't rely too much on that blog. It's "bits and pieces" simply because... I'm just not consistent enough. xD I update by random, or when I suddenly remember I have something JE related that I should share.

So yes... Bits and Pieces. xD

As for Cream and Mint... It's for personal stuff, like daily rants... Not that I'll update everyday, I think. Hahaha. It's cream and mint simply because... I like cream and mint best of all food? O.O Hahaha. No logic, but who cares?

Oh well. xD Good night!